Time to start

It’s starting to get out of control… it’s not out of control yet, just getting there.

I guess this first post should give some context about the purpose of this blog.  About two years ago (2 years, 1 month, and 9 days) I met a woman who dazzled me.   The lightning fast version of the story is that we fell hard and fast in love, were a totally romance-novel / chick-flick amazing couple and got married about a year and a half later.  We’ve been married for about 9 months, we had a rough time adjusting (nothing epic), but she’s decided to divorce me.  To bump up the weirdness, she wants to still date me.  I’m not sure yet how I feel about that.

The purpose of this blog is to help me log what I’m doing with my life and make sure it’s all pointing in a good direction so that I don’t just implode.  I love my wife madly, and having her toss me so casually is definitely painful enough that I could crumble if I don’t keep a close eye on my progress.

I’d considered doing this over the last couple of weeks, but this morning there was a small event that triggered me to go and start this: I just weighed myself and I’ve apparently lost 7 pounds in the last week (not in a good way).  I’ve shown signs of depression, so I’ve been intentionally drinking Boost and trying to force myself to eat.  I even worked out once or twice, but I’m still digesting myself.  Not cool.

My goals are to get through this emotionally, physically, and professionally.  I’ll try to write somewhat intelligently so that other people can use this for inspiration/information if they find themselves in a similar spot.  I’ll probably write a longer post at some point which has more backstory.  That’d probably be therapeutic.

Other things:
- I’m going to stay as anonymous as possible.  Otherwise I couldn’t be as honest here.
- Leave comments.  Early & often.  When in doubt… comment.  I’m obviously not going to tell anyone I know about this blog (see previous line), so it would get awfully lonely here if you don’t leave comments.

Appropriate music: Make Yourself by Incubus

~ by rebuildingmyself on March 14, 2008.